PRAYING FOR PEACE

So here I am flat on my back and ready to scream!!! At the same time I have had alot of time to think about my life and where I am. So I am just going to empty my heart and mind and hopefully from there I will be able to move on and do what I am suppose to do. I felt that at one time I had some really good friends that I so enjoyed hanging out with then as time went on I felt as though they were pulling away. I told myself that it was just satan and let it go because it wasn't true well now I feel so different!!! For some reason they have pulled away and I feel like by me still calling them or trying to do things with them I have only made them feel as though they have to lie to me whenever they are together or no longer post on facebook when they are together. So I asked Jared what he thought I should do and of course he says it's up to me he don't care so whether this is right or not I have decided to back away and just let go so they don't feel like they have to lie or hide from what they are doing because who wants to live like that anyway. So is this the right thing to do or not I don't know should I talk to both of them to let them know that I'm not upset with them just giving them their own space to do as they want I don't know what is the best or right way so I am very open for any ideas!!!! All I want is for my mind and heart to be at peace!!! You know how it feels when you feel like I better call someone to keep peace so they don't think we don't want to be with them and I feel as though that is how they feel and believe me that is not my desire at all!!!!! I don't understand right now but I am sure God will teach me something from this all and I do treasure your prayers!!!! Well my boys are coming in wondering why I am crying so I am going to be done and just move on!!!!!

MY DAUGHTER

I know now why God gave me only 1 girl!!! So here are the reasons why I say that. Last night she comes bouncing in the house mom I want to call my bamma the one with black hair and has it this way not the bamma that has white hair and has it like this as she puts her hair up on top of her head. I asked her why she wanted to call her and she said because I want to tell her thank-you for my bike she got the bike 2 years ago so why now who knows!! Then I needed to go to paw paw and she went with me and all the way there she didn't shut up once. She looks at me and says mom when can we go have a sweep (sleep) over at Jesus house I told her when he calls then we can go so then her next question is well what about God will he be there? Then she says mom Cameron tells me that Jesus is beside me all the time so he is right here and I told God he can come to so they are in the back seat in their seatbelts. The reason they were in the back according to her is because Jesus didn't want God to be alone back there so Jesus is sitting by him. So there never a dull moment around here!!!

BEDTIME AT THE STAUFFERS

Can you believe it 2 blogs in a row?? Every single night we go through a time of Camille coming out of her room just to tell me something. This just isn't like just do it 3 times no it can last up to a hour before she finally gives in and falls asleep and she at times lays on the kitchen floor just so she don't have to go to her bed. So tonight Jared told her it was time for bed and that if she comes out of her room he was going to spank her well sure enough 15 minutes later here she comes. Jared asked her if she remembered what he told her and then gave her the spanking and told her that she does not come out of her room unless she is bleeding or if something really bad was happening and off to bed she went. We went back to watching our movie and sure enough here she comes again this time going straight to her daddy and said look daddy I beeding see and sure enough she was. Well when she went back to her room she found a scab on her arm picked it off so it was bleeding. Needless to say Jared didn't find it at all funny but I sure did!!! That just goes to prove that we need to be very careful what we tell that child!! I am so glad that I am headed to bed right now and she is in her bed sound asleep!!

BUSY BUSY BUSY

Life has been crazy busy ever since the week before the kidney walk. The walk was on May 31st and it was an awesome day to see all that came to support us. Aaron's, John's and Toby's (Aaron's brother and his family) were here and it was so much fun being able to hang out with them at the same time. Jeremy and Jess came from Indiana I wasn't able to spend much time with them but it was good to see them. Coleman's classmates, baseball team, and some from his Sunday school class were there also. Thank-you don't really seem like enough to say you all will never know what it meant to us!!! I had no idea how it would make me feel being part of it but it was a feeling I wasn't expecting. There are things in life that you would like to put in the back of your brain and just not have it in your face well that is what I felt that day like it was in my face. It was like ha ha this is your life and what are you going to do about it!! After that it was time to get ready for VBS camp edge was our theme and it was a VERY long week and so many times I felt like satan was working overtime in my life I was hoping that once it started it would get better but oh NO he just tried harder. VBS was June 15th-19th the last night we were cleaning up the church and as we were walking out the door Jared's phone rang and it was the lady that rides with him to work everyday. We were in the middle of a bad storm and as she was driving down our road a tree fell on her car and she had her grand daughter with her. Her cell phone wouldn't let her call 911 or her husband all it would do is call Jared so here we are 20 minutes away from her and Jared is calling 911 for her!! Don't that sound like a great cell phone company?? They were both okay they were able to drive the car home once they got the tree off. Then I was home all day Saturday trying to get things caught up because the next day I was headed to junior high camp with our church. Camp was a week long and by the time it was over I was dead tired but it was a great week!! I am so thankful that my kids have that opportunity!!! So home on Friday night only to get things done so we could leave the following Thursday for Nebraska!! We had such a great time and I am very thankful to be able to celebrate Fredetta's 80th birthday it was a surprise and it was also a Jake Roth family reunion. This was the first one we ever had and it was a lot of fun and I am hoping we do it again every year would be fine with me and YES we will be there for everyone!!! Better yet maybe we should have them in different states. Our neighbors were able to go with us to Nebraska they have been wanting to and it worked out for them this time so we was able to show them around which was fun!! We also had gotten tickets to go see Larry the cable guy and yes we laughed and laughed but it felt so good. Dylan and Cameron babysat all the kids so they were very busy they had some issues but we were very proud of the way they handled it!!! We left Nebraska on Monday night around 10:00 and drove all night which we usually do but this time we knew that when we got home we would have visitors so that kept us going or should I say it kept Jared going. Del, Anita and Lexi were in Indiana and before they went home they came over to visit. It was their first time ever being here so we were able to show them around and we went to the lake but wouldn't you know it was freezing cold!!!! We are hoping they will come back sometime and enjoy the lake when it is hot. I will say that the rest of the week it was hot of course!! Since they left it has been a normal week of daycare then I cleaned today and when I got home Jared took the kids to a movie so I had a quiet evening which was very nice!!!! After reading all this I now know why I have felt like I am losing my mind and why I have been so tired!!!