PRAYING FOR PEACE

So here I am flat on my back and ready to scream!!! At the same time I have had alot of time to think about my life and where I am. So I am just going to empty my heart and mind and hopefully from there I will be able to move on and do what I am suppose to do. I felt that at one time I had some really good friends that I so enjoyed hanging out with then as time went on I felt as though they were pulling away. I told myself that it was just satan and let it go because it wasn't true well now I feel so different!!! For some reason they have pulled away and I feel like by me still calling them or trying to do things with them I have only made them feel as though they have to lie to me whenever they are together or no longer post on facebook when they are together. So I asked Jared what he thought I should do and of course he says it's up to me he don't care so whether this is right or not I have decided to back away and just let go so they don't feel like they have to lie or hide from what they are doing because who wants to live like that anyway. So is this the right thing to do or not I don't know should I talk to both of them to let them know that I'm not upset with them just giving them their own space to do as they want I don't know what is the best or right way so I am very open for any ideas!!!! All I want is for my mind and heart to be at peace!!! You know how it feels when you feel like I better call someone to keep peace so they don't think we don't want to be with them and I feel as though that is how they feel and believe me that is not my desire at all!!!!! I don't understand right now but I am sure God will teach me something from this all and I do treasure your prayers!!!! Well my boys are coming in wondering why I am crying so I am going to be done and just move on!!!!!